Passion to pursue something to achieve nothing...

I remember my love for cricket. The feel of hitting the ball with bat as hard I can, made me curious towards the game. The reaction of people seeing ball travel far when it hit the bat, had amazed me. When ball was not going far after the impact, people kept quiet. Looked funny and simple to me as audience but I got eager to try myself, whenever I get chance.

When I first got the opportunity to try my hands, I was able to hit the ball when the pace of the ball was slow but when the ball was delivered with fast pace, it was not possible for me to hit it. I was missing or sometimes edging the fast delivery bowled at me. My perception transformed that the game of cricket is not so simple as it looks. However, I enjoyed the process of hitting and missing some. It was fun.

Slowly, my interest developed towards the game and through various sources I became aware about the rules and it further fascinated me.

I felt joyous when I perform good while playing cricket. However, I failed badly many a times, but the small joy given by good performance here and there, kept me going, to pursue actually nothing.

Honestly, I just used to play the game because I was passionate about it. The feeling of ball hitting the meat of the bat used to give me extreme satisfaction. Slowly I developed some skills due to love I had for the game.

I just wanted to play cricket with my full focus and best spirit.

Years later, when I am not playing that frequently, I just want to relate to that feeling.

Ohhh! that’s happiness…

Just asking - when is the last time where you passionately pursued nothing?

Passion makes you forego unwanted and learn the needful to bring out the best version of yourself.

Obligation to prevent communal hatred...

In a garden, if there is only rose flower or any particular kind of flower, it won't have the same importance after a span of time. Moreover, garden looks best when it has variety of flowers, each having their own special and distinct characterstics.

India is also the same, each belief have their own importance in this holy land. That commences the spirit behind "We the People" of Constitution. All flowers together makes our garden beautiful.

However, if there is insect attacked to a particular batch or segment of flowers. We need to treat that affected batch or segment. Need to identify the cause and treat the cause preventing recurrence. One should never think to convict other unaffected innocent beautiful flowers of that segment, who stood tall with us, since long in our journey.

Wherever you treat innocent with hatred, humanity have to pay. History proves that. Remember, diversity makes this nature and our country, beautiful.

Every belief basically teach about Humanity in different style. Sanathan Dharma promotes it. 

As in the case, if virus attacks our computer system, in a similar way, it attacks our belief system. Job of antivirus is to kill virus not other required features of system.

For the time being, suppose, let us consider, if we destroy all the flowers of a particular category or segment, where part of it is affected by virus. The tendency of human being is they'll slowly but steadily start differentiating with other remaining segment of flowers, to satisfy their quest to attain supremacy. May be, on other hatred based innovative grounds.

Apart from social distancing, need of hour is to control, hatred virus within us spread by _______. Need self introspection without bias. If social distancing is self responsibility, so is the radical obligation to prevent communal hatred.

Just suppose for instance, if someone use bad words to your God, feeling of anger is inevitable. Anger I suppose comes to human not to God.

God of any belief in the given scenario will forgive the person and correct the virus of affected person and owe him again without discrimination.

Beware, understand, else nature has its own way to make you understand!

First Stride Forward...

A decade back, I started my career as a practicing Advocate.

The feeling was good but in true sense, I never knew from where to and how to start the work.

I was ambitious since I ever remember myself and hence, had high hope from myself. I had a belief in my heart that I am special, and I will conquer the world by making very good name in the Profession very quickly. I used to think, like in college, people generally will be good and help me to absorb in the profession smoothly so that I can grow rapidly and earn a lot.

With enormous hope and hiding some pain inside me, I was ready for the adventure. I joined a very good lawyer’s office and kept on reading routine files but never knew what I must do next. When I can appear in the court or what am I expected to do in Advocate’s office. I asked the Senior humbly and other colleagues as well to which they responded courteously and rightly, but somewhere something was tingling me. Whether I am doing the task rightly or not? What’s the expectation from me?

In erstwhile life, I was judged through the marks obtained in examination which had clear guidelines on how to answer the questions. Many a times, when I was not knowing the correct answer, I wrote whatever I felt like with a hope that the examiner may find something worthy and render mercy. Such attempts worked at times.

However, in real life, without clear guidelines, answering the questions posed by life became difficult. My parents spent so much in my education and they were hopeful for returns as well. All kind of issues designed by my mind, created more pressure for me, as I stood somewhere in a bridge between theoretical and practical world.

Life without being judged through marks looked different to me.

Everyone out there in the legal industry where I worked had their own battles and they were busy in that and I thought once that no one bothered about me that I joined this profession to learn and grow quickly. Also had hidden desire to earn a lot and one day fulfill all the secret desires which were hidden in my heart. After all, I believed that I am special.   

There were lot of thoughts and emotions which persuaded me to push harder with more sincerity to make something extra ordinary to happen in life quickly but everything around was moving at its own pace. No one taught me things with individualistic focus.

I never knew when money for survival will start flowing my way. I was not hundred percent sure about doing things in a right way. I kept on observing things surrounding me and somehow learnt to complete the task without error. Somewhere around that time, I made a resolution to myself that “I will follow my instincts” and keep on trying without thinking much of results.

With that resolution, I’ve commenced with the biggest learning of my life i.e. self - learning i.e. taking decision for myself based on problems accessed by me.

I learnt that when there is no one around to take decision for you and you are burnt enough so that you keep all the lame excuses away and further decide that this is the time where you have to take responsibility to do good to yourself. My conscience said to me that I will follow my instincts, knowledge or whatever it takes to decide my future actions for my betterment.

This small stride towards something better is gaining experience and progress. That quality of taking decision for my good is EMPOWERMENT.

Since that day, some light pushes me to take decisions in life, when it is required.

First Encounter towards "I am"

The first lesson I learnt after joining Sri Siddha Sanmarga is discipline. Previously, it was missing badly in my life.

I remember the first meeting with Guruji and after participating in few meditation, thought “what’s this?”

It was THE surprise of my life.

Mesmerizing, it was.

I had only heard about the word meditation and knew nothing about it before attending the meditation workshop of Sri Siddha Sanmarga. After attending two days of workshop, felt life before was in so much darkness.

For me that two day workshop was shocker. Huh! I never knew that there existed so much knowledge and secret behind our existence.

Previously, I was imbued with so much ego and pride of my artificial journey. But, now, slowly the workshops of Sri Siddha Sanmarga and teachings of Guruji has transformed me extremely.

All unwanted stuffs beneath the outer shell of my body got repaired and cleaned through the divine blessing and healing of my beloved Guruji.

The overall experience is beyond my comprehension but it had deepen me and brought so many changes in various aspect of my life.

It improved immensely the way I approached life before. I got clarity towards purpose of life. I started using wisdom more rather than reacting to situations formed around me.

Nowadays, I tend to wait surreptitiously for an opportunity to close my eyes to dive into meditative state and get lost in silence to experience bliss. It is the most glorious state one can hold on to; temporarily away from murmuring of the world surrounding us.

However, it is slightly painful at times to come out of that state and open your eyes to face the world again. Although, feeling refreshed and revived with peace and as soon as mind gets active again, I immediately hope to get next opportunity to get lost in that silent state again to feel “I am” or our existence, as it is. Free from all restrictions.

Contemplations, Goals and Realisations...

One of my small write up about my experience in London, UK got published in my University's newsletter. Available @ page 5 in the link http://www.bppstudents.com/files/tinybrowser/society_newsletter_3rd_edition.pdf

Chasing Dreams...

Few days back, I used to spend a quiet time over a bench of beautiful garden near my apartment. Apart from scenic beauty, I found number of kids used to practise their stunts in skateboards.

Once, I remember a scrawny white boy trying a flip trick (action performed to rotate in air by pressing a tail of skate with a backfoot to get front wheels leave the ground first for the stunt). Unfortunately, he felt terribly in ground and found himself lying there for few moments. Around 8-9 of his peers watched him fall and started laughing and enjoying his downfall. When all his peers found him lying in the ground for more than 20-30 seconds, couple of them came forward for help and lifted him up but couldn’t yet control their laugh. They made a mockery of his attempt. Huh! I can’t forget the face of that little boy, it turned red instantly and he seemed very angry. Although, he was quiet and tried to bear all the fun made of him.

Next day, I saw that boy again but this time, along with a skateboard, he had a small bandage in his hand. He looked quiet and was not trying a flip trick with his skateboard, fearing that he may fall and would be a matter of laugh again. However, he was doing a simple smooth skate for the rest of the day and he followed same routine for few of the subsequent days as well.

After a week, I have found him coming a bit early to garden and practise alone, a fliptrick and I was stunned to see him fall numerous times trying to get right something. It seemed that he was passionate about doing some stunt which he had in his mind. Me being unsure of what he was doing, I just focused on other interesting things which were apparent to my eyes.

Moreover, just after an hour, his friends joined him and they were playing together joyously. Suddenly, I found him accelerating the speed of his skateboard and passing his friends with a buzz signalling that today he’ll do something more which is expected out of him. His friend increased their speed as well to give him competition. The said small competition amongst kids grabbed my eye ball for a while. The kid who had fallen before, had different sense of seriousness in his eyes today. As he wanted to prove something. He looked more careful, responsible and serious and than sooner the time came when I found him jumping in the air with his skateboard and rolling like a cyclone in the air and coming back to his skateboard again. I thought WOW.

Most of the people in the garden who watched it remained stunned for few moments. Thereafter, everyone applauded and appreciated him but he remained busy in skating unbothered for a while and kept on skating. Later on few of his peers came to him for his advice to help them in getting their moves right. During the conversation with his colleagues, his eyes sparked confidence, pride and deep satisfaction. I left these beautiful creatures and walked back home thinking -

Terrific – the challenge this little kid posed for himself, he has achieved it. Hmmm! this situation has a similarity with our lives as well. There are certain things which we really want to do from the core of our heart but we can’t do it because we’re not, may be, very good at it. Hence, we stop trying due to multitudinous surrounding fears. Most common ‘how he/they will think?’ and we compromise. Slowly it becomes our habit to compromise. Sad… Sad… Sad…

However, still there are few exists, who are really passionate about what they are doing and keep on following the direction suggested by their heart and battle out most hurdles in their way, head on, in a hope to chase something which they truly wants. They have a belief that they’re capable of reaching that part which their mind has perceived.Yes, I’ve seen their ways are not smooth and stable, and at times, really wierd which opens up a gate for loads of aspersions thrown over them. But, yes they keep on moving, moving ahead crossing various milestones in their way in order to achieve a target which their heart had setted for them.

These are some special genes who follows their heart and not their brain. As brain generally brings you mind blowing pay checks but a person who follows their heart and gets to the place which he believes he deserve, brings him a deep sense of satisfaction. I have seen that the eyes of such champions reflects the spark of their ambitions and they chase it passionately which makes them a class apart.

These people are least bothered about money but more concerned about winning each challenge which they poses for themselves and that give them immense pacification in their life.

Slowly, this habit dissolves in their personality and makes them really big.

I have observed this scenario in the case of Sachin Tendulkar and Ranbir Kapoor. They are so humble and grounded but their work talks for them. Salute… and they inspire me a lot…

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Only Bad Mornings in Mumbai...

Office-Home-Office-Home-Office-Home ---) WEEKEND.

AGAIN - Office-Home-Office-Home-Office-Home…

This routine continues without any end here in MUMBAI, at least, for me.

I have to start my day really early due to ugly office timings.

Before I inhale fresh air in the morning, pressure dances at the background of my mind compelling me to get ready for office. There is no time whatsoever to think more than what is required to live a mechanical mediocre life here. They say - one has to be on their feet to cope up with the pace of the city, else, life collapses.

True, till certain extent, as I get ready quickly at morning and get out of my flat to catch auto in order to further catch train from station. I have observed that ego of Auto Driver here soars high during morning hours and to get opportunity to sit in their rickshaw render more happiness to me than salary day. After adjusting big bums in small seats of rickshaw, somehow I manage to reach Station. After reaching Station, I insert ear phones and switch on radio to hear my beloved RJ (.) and rush to platform finding way between uncontrollable caboodle of people.

To get entry in train here is more difficult than cracking interview for top tier job. How I manage it? One may never understand it unless they experience the same.

Actually, my parents ensured that I get quality education in good educational institutions throughout my student life, so that I’ll become civilized member of the society. But to my or may be (Society’s) misfortune, to get entry in train, I have to embrace my wildest instinct.

Once you are in, try to find stability in your posture and close your eyes. Otherwise, either you’ll break down or lose hope on humanity. Also, your eyes shall be compelled to see best ever bald oily heads and simultaneously someone will fornicate you. One doesn’t have any option but to passively tolerate it.

After all this onerous experience, if one reaches office and get diplomatic accolades for getting late. I don’t have words to retort against such aspersions.

Life’s tough but still a nice song in your radio station channel may help you forget and forgive everything but the same rhythm goes on and on…

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